I'm sat here wondering when this feeling will actually shift. Life is short so why am I sat here lost trying to plan my next move?
My mind is accomodating a confusion of thoughts and my body is physically and spiritually drained. A fast paced life is fun, but when the energy runs out, what happens next?
For the past 4 years I have lived a lifestyle, based around friendships, luxuries and partying, but are these the things, which have lead me to be feeling like this now?
So many questions and not enough answers.
I put my loved ones before myself in every situation, ensuring their safety and happiness before my own. But who looks out for me? Who makes sure Hannah is ok?
I am slowly learning that being selfish, is the only way to go in this world, equally no one should be trusted, because when it comes down to it, the majority of people will put themself first.
My problem is though, how do I develop this selfish manner when it is not in my nature, in order to protect myself from getting hurt.
I'm not sitting here writing this entry for sympathy. Sympathy makes me feel weak, and that I am not. I aim to find answers and maybe putting this down in physical form will help me to find these.
No one but myself will help me to lift this feeling, but in order for me to solve he problem, I must first understand the problem
